I know you have all been there when death robs of a gem you hold next to your heart..(if not then be prepared :p)Death is a wound that only Almighty can heal,love is a memory noone on earth can steal..This is dedicated to my late aunt may God rest her soul in eternal bliss..Ameen.
Dear beloved,
Sometimes i sit and wonder what it would have been with you still here;you left so so0n,so unexpectedly,there was still more i wanted to say . . .still more i wanted to share...i realise i never got the chance to. .perhaps i realise to0 late. Your sudden departure leaves me abandoned yet more mature,as it's only now that i know how the heart aches and craves for a beloved. .a beloved long gone!
I clearly remember how the news of your death struck. . .struck so hard that i couldn't breath . .struck me so hard my heart pounded with fury and my cheeks continously overflowed with streams of bitter salty tears. It was so early that cold morning,i almost thought i was still dreaming..reality punch so hard it sent me crashing to the ground. Believe me,i still feel your absence to date..i still remember your scent when we hugged. . .how we used to stay up for hours and hours just talking. It's amazing how you are still the only person who has ever made me laugh the hardest,your sweet memories put a smile to my face . .still i never got to say it all!
I'm so glad u were there every time i got lost or ventured out of my path. . .it's you-you always had my back. Today am so greatful to have had you yet so regretful coz i never got to say . . .to say it all. You labouriously showed me the way..a lady of a unique mettle.. I wish you were here to see what kind i turned out to be,as you were a humangous part of what moulded me.. I wish you were here to see what kind of guy would steal my heart and walk me down the aisle.
As i write this,tears cloud my eyes coz there never came a time and it never crossed my mind that would n0t be around. Today i have to live with the reality of just your yesteryear memories. I fight . . .fight hard to keep them alive coz i never want them to fade away . .please don't fade away. You left an abyss in my heart coz i never,never got to say to say it all!
I wish . .i just wish that i got a moment to say it all..to say how much i love and adore you and how much your absence makes my heart sore. . .i just never got the chance to say it all!
Lots of love,
Enigma.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Angels turns to a devil. . .0ncemore!
**Tonight she is sleeping with a broken heart,
**Believe me,every inch of her soul will hurt,
**And as tears of despondency soak her pillow,
**Her torso feels so hollow.
**Its like her pain has an echo,
**It all just happened with such a tempo,
**She finds herself wallowing in sorrow..
**What a bitter tablet to have to swallow!
**Lying there in pain and despair,
**Suddenly comes an angel for her heart's repair,
**To trust the angel she wouldnt't dare!
**But angel showers her with love and care,
**He says repairing broken hearts was his favourite flair,
**Still scared,she preferred to stay put in her lair,
**Because deep inside,her heart still had cracks and a tear
**But amazingly the angel vowed not to go anywhere..
**Angel makes her feel as if she is in la-la land,
**Her every unspoken wish is his command,
**Her heart is abducted and absconded from problems at hand,
**It's only her and angel in her dreamland,
**Then abruptly the truth sends her to crash land,
**Its life puting her yet again to the witness stand!
**Angel turns to a devil oncemore,he's totally offhand!
**Sleeping with a broken heart, thinking why the world is such an unfair land..
****Angel turns to a devil. . .oncemore :(
Enigma.
**Believe me,every inch of her soul will hurt,
**And as tears of despondency soak her pillow,
**Her torso feels so hollow.
**Its like her pain has an echo,
**It all just happened with such a tempo,
**She finds herself wallowing in sorrow..
**What a bitter tablet to have to swallow!
**Lying there in pain and despair,
**Suddenly comes an angel for her heart's repair,
**To trust the angel she wouldnt't dare!
**But angel showers her with love and care,
**He says repairing broken hearts was his favourite flair,
**Still scared,she preferred to stay put in her lair,
**Because deep inside,her heart still had cracks and a tear
**But amazingly the angel vowed not to go anywhere..
**Angel makes her feel as if she is in la-la land,
**Her every unspoken wish is his command,
**Her heart is abducted and absconded from problems at hand,
**It's only her and angel in her dreamland,
**Then abruptly the truth sends her to crash land,
**Its life puting her yet again to the witness stand!
**Angel turns to a devil oncemore,he's totally offhand!
**Sleeping with a broken heart, thinking why the world is such an unfair land..
****Angel turns to a devil. . .oncemore :(
Enigma.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
:) I KNOW :) YES I KNOW! :)
**I know,
if am falling u wont dare let me hit the ground,
coz i'm the only one that makes your heart pound
**I know,
if the boat is sinking you wont let me drown,
every frown disappears as you are my only clown.
**I know,
if i'm lost seven days at sea,i wont be alone,
coz your sweet mem0ries are my favourite zone!
**I know,
if it's my last breath i would leave my kiss 4 u,
trust me baby,it's just me and you in our canoe.
**I know,
if one day this world went to an unending war,
i will fight for you coz you are my heart's core.
**I know,
if the sun decides not to shine no more,
you wil be my light coz you are the one i truly adore!
*******Yes i know*******
Enigma.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
B*abe I*n T*otal C*ontrol H*oney!
BIAAAAA*AA#AATCH! ! !
If s0meone called you that trust me she did you a humangous favour!coz being a bitch isnt about stepping on other people or tv-style sabotage antic.It's about working hard for what you want,and kn0wing what you stand up for,what you deserve!it's not about dem0ralising others it's about self-empowerment.It's n0t about being arrogant;it's about displaying your confidence and intellect as a badge of pride.It's n0t asserting any superiority or self-entitlement but recognising your own self WORTH and VALUE! (HBI)
BITCHOLOGY,being a bitch means:
I stand up for myself and my beliefs and that n0 matter how you ably try to abrade and ridicule them i wont let them go!
I stand up for those i love;you cant take that away fr0m me,sorry its an inborn talent many adore.
I speak my mind thus you will never get to brand me as INARTICULATE!I have had it with people telling me that am to0 loud,assertive and opinionated!
I think my own thoughts,as i purge my mind of your ill thoughts,or i do things my own way whenever you want to make me a ridiculous puppet.
I wont compromise what's in my heart,if you think you will then i must say,you have no inkling of the real me!
I live my life my way,i dont indulge in your senseless and inchoate vagueness you call life.Just let me skate in my beautiful rink of life
I wont allow anyone to step on me;it's an inbuilt awareness that mama continuously plunged in my head.
I refuse to tolerate injustice for it's injustice to the weak that i greatly abhor...c'm0n!That's just an ab0minati0n!
It means i have courage and strength to allow myself to be..so you must admit that you are n0t even close to my incalculable aura.
So d0nt you ever try to stomp on me,because like grass,i always grow back abundantly no matter how bad i have been treated.
Douse my inner flame?dont you dare!because il always burn with fierce dreams and ambitions.My flame will burn illuminating my incandescent pers0nality!
Squash every ounce of beauty i hold within?nah i dont think so!you shall n0t!if you think you will do that then it just shows your inane ability,hehe.
So try n0t to stain me because am like pure fountain water;it always stays clean,nobody can manage to stain it,n0t even you..staining me is an old wives tale honey!
I stand tall and n0 amounts of 'storms' can destroy me!This is sure as morning will come after a dark night.
I am like s0mething to lo0k for in far-off future like an approaching COMET,so d0nt you even bother overshadowing me!
I have a frightening intelligence that has surely and without a doubt incarnated your worries..o0oh puhhhliz!get over it!or you might just wake up white-haired the next m0rning.
I clearly d0nt need you to validate my existance and if that scares you then its a pity because you are being down right stupid!
So fr0m today if any0ne calls you a biatch you should kn0w you must be heating a nerve,if they start calling you a heartless biatch then kn0w that you have got them running scared. .wait the best part is when they call you a cold heartless biatch!(lol)because they realise that you are some0ne they will never be able to subjugate!
Hell hath n0 fury like a bitch scorned. . .so
B E W A R E ! ! !
Enigma.
If s0meone called you that trust me she did you a humangous favour!coz being a bitch isnt about stepping on other people or tv-style sabotage antic.It's about working hard for what you want,and kn0wing what you stand up for,what you deserve!it's not about dem0ralising others it's about self-empowerment.It's n0t about being arrogant;it's about displaying your confidence and intellect as a badge of pride.It's n0t asserting any superiority or self-entitlement but recognising your own self WORTH and VALUE! (HBI)
BITCHOLOGY,being a bitch means:
I stand up for myself and my beliefs and that n0 matter how you ably try to abrade and ridicule them i wont let them go!
I stand up for those i love;you cant take that away fr0m me,sorry its an inborn talent many adore.
I speak my mind thus you will never get to brand me as INARTICULATE!I have had it with people telling me that am to0 loud,assertive and opinionated!
I think my own thoughts,as i purge my mind of your ill thoughts,or i do things my own way whenever you want to make me a ridiculous puppet.
I wont compromise what's in my heart,if you think you will then i must say,you have no inkling of the real me!
I live my life my way,i dont indulge in your senseless and inchoate vagueness you call life.Just let me skate in my beautiful rink of life
I wont allow anyone to step on me;it's an inbuilt awareness that mama continuously plunged in my head.
I refuse to tolerate injustice for it's injustice to the weak that i greatly abhor...c'm0n!That's just an ab0minati0n!
It means i have courage and strength to allow myself to be..so you must admit that you are n0t even close to my incalculable aura.
So d0nt you ever try to stomp on me,because like grass,i always grow back abundantly no matter how bad i have been treated.
Douse my inner flame?dont you dare!because il always burn with fierce dreams and ambitions.My flame will burn illuminating my incandescent pers0nality!
Squash every ounce of beauty i hold within?nah i dont think so!you shall n0t!if you think you will do that then it just shows your inane ability,hehe.
So try n0t to stain me because am like pure fountain water;it always stays clean,nobody can manage to stain it,n0t even you..staining me is an old wives tale honey!
I stand tall and n0 amounts of 'storms' can destroy me!This is sure as morning will come after a dark night.
I am like s0mething to lo0k for in far-off future like an approaching COMET,so d0nt you even bother overshadowing me!
I have a frightening intelligence that has surely and without a doubt incarnated your worries..o0oh puhhhliz!get over it!or you might just wake up white-haired the next m0rning.
I clearly d0nt need you to validate my existance and if that scares you then its a pity because you are being down right stupid!
So fr0m today if any0ne calls you a biatch you should kn0w you must be heating a nerve,if they start calling you a heartless biatch then kn0w that you have got them running scared. .wait the best part is when they call you a cold heartless biatch!(lol)because they realise that you are some0ne they will never be able to subjugate!
Hell hath n0 fury like a bitch scorned. . .so
B E W A R E ! ! !
Enigma.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
'A dreamer'
life is to0 short for drama and petty things,so kiss slowly,laugh insanely,love truly,forgive quickly and hold your dreams close and NEVER let them go!be a dreamer and u might just live your dreams!
DR.Razed,a highly venerated doctor,sat before them,dark balding,his eyes hooded like a giant turtle's.Somehow sarah knew that there was s0mething extremely wrong..she clutch her baby girl very close to her as if s0meone was ready to snatch her away any minute.The baby had big brown eyes which counterpointed her rich h0ney complexion.This quickly made you notice her arabian decent.sarah named her Gamar and sure enough she glowed like a the mo0n fr0m the m0ment she was born.Gamar played with her mother's hijab probably fascinated by the intricate and beautiful patterns on it,oblivious of her surroundings.
'Am sorry,there is NOTHING we can do.Am afraid she will not be able to walk at all in her life.She would need a miracle to do so' Dr.Razed dropped the bomb on Sarah.
At the very m0ment,Sarah felt the weight of the whole world on her shoulders.Her heart threatened to burst out of her chest as tears of despondency trickled down her pretty face.The docter mumbled something but she couldnt hear a word.As if baby Gamar understood,she abruptly became quiet as she stared at her m0ther's teary face.reaching out with her little fingers she touched her mother's cheeks trying to wipe the streams of tears fr0m her eyes.
Sarah smiled at her baby and kissed her on her forehead.The power that women possesed that they could smile even when in grave pain was just amazing!the 23 year old widow wondered how she would deal with this when her strongest pillar-her husband-had kicked the bucket last year in iraq.That's when it came to her!it was Gamar;they would go through this together n0 matter what!The future was very misty for both of them but she vowed to venture zestfully into it...
As gamar grew up,she taught her never to give up and that she herself was the miracle and she wouldnt need a miracle as the docter said earlier.They m0ved fr0m hospital to hospital,they sought expertees of stupendous docters and Gamar faced the cut several times but this didnt deter her fr0m her dreams of walking.She kept her dreams close,alive and never let anyone dictate what she could or couldnt do.She also knew that her determination would get her to her destinati0n.
As a child,she dreamt of walking,going to scho0l,swimming and she vowed to herself that she would be someone very important one day.yeah they called her a DREAMER.Of course it wasnt easy,but she trusted her God for He never let her down,He always came through for her,He always delivered!
That m0rning,several days after her last operati0n it was time to kn0w if she would live her dreams or n0t . . .it was with the greatest joy that she discovered that she could walk!tears trickled down her rosy cheeks as her m0ther clutched tightly just like when she was a baby.
Today 'Gamar' has fulfilled m0st of her dreams and is yet to fulfill others because she is still a dreamer to date!
Enigma.
DR.Razed,a highly venerated doctor,sat before them,dark balding,his eyes hooded like a giant turtle's.Somehow sarah knew that there was s0mething extremely wrong..she clutch her baby girl very close to her as if s0meone was ready to snatch her away any minute.The baby had big brown eyes which counterpointed her rich h0ney complexion.This quickly made you notice her arabian decent.sarah named her Gamar and sure enough she glowed like a the mo0n fr0m the m0ment she was born.Gamar played with her mother's hijab probably fascinated by the intricate and beautiful patterns on it,oblivious of her surroundings.
'Am sorry,there is NOTHING we can do.Am afraid she will not be able to walk at all in her life.She would need a miracle to do so' Dr.Razed dropped the bomb on Sarah.
At the very m0ment,Sarah felt the weight of the whole world on her shoulders.Her heart threatened to burst out of her chest as tears of despondency trickled down her pretty face.The docter mumbled something but she couldnt hear a word.As if baby Gamar understood,she abruptly became quiet as she stared at her m0ther's teary face.reaching out with her little fingers she touched her mother's cheeks trying to wipe the streams of tears fr0m her eyes.
Sarah smiled at her baby and kissed her on her forehead.The power that women possesed that they could smile even when in grave pain was just amazing!the 23 year old widow wondered how she would deal with this when her strongest pillar-her husband-had kicked the bucket last year in iraq.That's when it came to her!it was Gamar;they would go through this together n0 matter what!The future was very misty for both of them but she vowed to venture zestfully into it...
As gamar grew up,she taught her never to give up and that she herself was the miracle and she wouldnt need a miracle as the docter said earlier.They m0ved fr0m hospital to hospital,they sought expertees of stupendous docters and Gamar faced the cut several times but this didnt deter her fr0m her dreams of walking.She kept her dreams close,alive and never let anyone dictate what she could or couldnt do.She also knew that her determination would get her to her destinati0n.
As a child,she dreamt of walking,going to scho0l,swimming and she vowed to herself that she would be someone very important one day.yeah they called her a DREAMER.Of course it wasnt easy,but she trusted her God for He never let her down,He always came through for her,He always delivered!
That m0rning,several days after her last operati0n it was time to kn0w if she would live her dreams or n0t . . .it was with the greatest joy that she discovered that she could walk!tears trickled down her rosy cheeks as her m0ther clutched tightly just like when she was a baby.
Today 'Gamar' has fulfilled m0st of her dreams and is yet to fulfill others because she is still a dreamer to date!
Enigma.
Friday, February 11, 2011
GOOD RIDDENCE!
DO you remember when i loved you so much?
I even believed we were the perfect match!
You drove me crazy with your luring cherry sweet touch,
I was your brake and you were my clutch.
I fully trusted you with my heart,
But in the end it was torn apart and hurt!
They say love is a beautiful n a heavenly art,
But how comes we are now apart????
Where were you when i loved you?
When i needed you and when i felt blue?
Now you realise it was true but you can only rue,
I will never again be part of your crew!
Well,for you n0w it's toooooo late,
I see no use quarelling with fate,
In time i realised your wayward trait!
Get this!this time i wont take the bait!
When you left you thought i would die?
Haha,admit it,c'mon dont be shy!
I did cry alittle i will n0t lie,
Now am so high and fly!you little sly!
It's n0t even go0dbye but g0od riddance!
You are nothing but a mere reminiscence!
In my life you have no more admittance!
Our love is but a subsidence!
*BON DEBARRAS!*
Enigma
I even believed we were the perfect match!
You drove me crazy with your luring cherry sweet touch,
I was your brake and you were my clutch.
I fully trusted you with my heart,
But in the end it was torn apart and hurt!
They say love is a beautiful n a heavenly art,
But how comes we are now apart????
Where were you when i loved you?
When i needed you and when i felt blue?
Now you realise it was true but you can only rue,
I will never again be part of your crew!
Well,for you n0w it's toooooo late,
I see no use quarelling with fate,
In time i realised your wayward trait!
Get this!this time i wont take the bait!
When you left you thought i would die?
Haha,admit it,c'mon dont be shy!
I did cry alittle i will n0t lie,
Now am so high and fly!you little sly!
It's n0t even go0dbye but g0od riddance!
You are nothing but a mere reminiscence!
In my life you have no more admittance!
Our love is but a subsidence!
*BON DEBARRAS!*
Enigma
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
WILL IT BE THE SAME?
Dear God,salma is one of the BEST threads that u stitched into the fabric of life and am thankful so grateful. . .heaven's blessing,she always kept me lifted,saying am gifted,always saying its g0nna be okey,we are g0ing make it even when she didnt have the slightest idea how...
I sat there benighted in the hotel facing salma,(my partner in crime lol) who calmly drank her hot tea.The smile on her face was familiar-the hidden agenda 1.Definitely she had an ace card up her sleeve!I inspected her more carefully this time and w0ndered what was so important that i had to leave my comfy bed so early to c0me and hear(just s0 you kn0w am n0t a morning pers0n)
'cant you just tell me already?its maddening and more so driving me crazy!salma what are you upto this time?i burst out running out of patience..i eargerly waited for her answer(it seemed like an eternity!)
she had a snazzy red scarf on.she was smiling broadely now..her eyes wide with excitement ....then she dropped the bomb 'i'm getting married! . .(O.M.G! I hadnt even thought of that!n0t in my wildest thoughts. .n0t even cl0se!)
I screamed amid shock and joy and hugged her tightly.(i mean it's supposed to be a g0od thing right?)By this time all eyes were on us.others were interested to kn0w about the excitement,others were n0t even bothered,while others just grimaced and gulped their breakfast.
She's n0t only an excepti0nal friend but like the twin sister i never had or what they say a sister fr0m an0ther m0ther(i have no idea who they is,so d0nt ask :p)she is a dashing,pretty and a dainty young lady but also a gutsy dare-devil when she wants to be.Ever since i could remember,we spent our childho0d years together,then there came the 'i hate boys period' to the teenage crisis,through the bad go0d and ugly,until n0w we are inseperable!
Now she's getting married?m0ving away?*shock* i mean its n0t like am n0t happy for her. .nah am elated that she finally found her MR.RIGHT!
It has been an amazing journey. .just AMAZING!her friendship unconditi0nal and true.I would gladly take a bullet for her because am sure she would do the same for me(d0nt! I mean it!) . .drifting to the era of catch,playing dressup,cha kimama,the when i grow up fantasy(lol big dreams)to where you would tell me those guys are totally checking us out!then we would giggle and m0ve on. .scho0l and n0t forgeting the boys crisis . . .ah. .
How am i going to take the sudden change?Will it be the SAME after you are MRS.SO AND SO?
Enigma
I sat there benighted in the hotel facing salma,(my partner in crime lol) who calmly drank her hot tea.The smile on her face was familiar-the hidden agenda 1.Definitely she had an ace card up her sleeve!I inspected her more carefully this time and w0ndered what was so important that i had to leave my comfy bed so early to c0me and hear(just s0 you kn0w am n0t a morning pers0n)
'cant you just tell me already?its maddening and more so driving me crazy!salma what are you upto this time?i burst out running out of patience..i eargerly waited for her answer(it seemed like an eternity!)
she had a snazzy red scarf on.she was smiling broadely now..her eyes wide with excitement ....then she dropped the bomb 'i'm getting married! . .(O.M.G! I hadnt even thought of that!n0t in my wildest thoughts. .n0t even cl0se!)
I screamed amid shock and joy and hugged her tightly.(i mean it's supposed to be a g0od thing right?)By this time all eyes were on us.others were interested to kn0w about the excitement,others were n0t even bothered,while others just grimaced and gulped their breakfast.
She's n0t only an excepti0nal friend but like the twin sister i never had or what they say a sister fr0m an0ther m0ther(i have no idea who they is,so d0nt ask :p)she is a dashing,pretty and a dainty young lady but also a gutsy dare-devil when she wants to be.Ever since i could remember,we spent our childho0d years together,then there came the 'i hate boys period' to the teenage crisis,through the bad go0d and ugly,until n0w we are inseperable!
Now she's getting married?m0ving away?*shock* i mean its n0t like am n0t happy for her. .nah am elated that she finally found her MR.RIGHT!
It has been an amazing journey. .just AMAZING!her friendship unconditi0nal and true.I would gladly take a bullet for her because am sure she would do the same for me(d0nt! I mean it!) . .drifting to the era of catch,playing dressup,cha kimama,the when i grow up fantasy(lol big dreams)to where you would tell me those guys are totally checking us out!then we would giggle and m0ve on. .scho0l and n0t forgeting the boys crisis . . .ah. .
How am i going to take the sudden change?Will it be the SAME after you are MRS.SO AND SO?
Enigma
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